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Post by The Tenth Doctor on Jan 1, 2011 20:48:34 GMT -5
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Melissa continued walking along with the Doctor.
"Yes, they are......they are nice and friendly. I'm glad that they liked you so well."
"Yeah...he does work for the CIA, though he had to take some time off a while ago because he got injured on the job. He's not very high up in it, but he has worked there for some time. He doesn't mind. I agree with you. Comedies are only good if they are done well. I don't like stupid, pointless humor, and neither do my parents. I also like romance when it is meaningful. Both my parents enjoy it, but especially my mom."
"What else did you want to talk about? I mean...I don't want to put you in an awkward position. I know that you said you're the last of your kind left....but if you wanted to talk about anything, I'd be glad to learn more about you. I don't want to pressure you, though....so I'll let you choose the topic. We could talk more about you...or me....whatever you wish."
Melissa said that as she stopped to admire a pretty flower along the path. Reply Edit . Report Abuse . Ban User . Delete Post .«Jan 18th 2010, 1:02pm . Edited Jan 18th 2010, 1:03pm #80
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Post by The Tenth Doctor on Jan 1, 2011 20:49:07 GMT -5
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He took an opportunity, "I'd like to know more about you." He smiled.
"What do you like to do? What do you want to do with your life?" He asked thoroughly interested.
He looked at the flower too. It was healthy and beautiful. He leaned down, looking at it closely. The Doctor was always into nature that was as pretty as this.
"So beautiful," He said looking up at Melissa. "...so is the flower." He added looking back at it. "I admire nature, especially if it's this lovely." He observed it closely. He then stood up still staring at it. He offered his arm again.
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Post by The Tenth Doctor on Jan 1, 2011 20:49:32 GMT -5
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Melissa was truly touched by the Doctor's words, and it served to only make her more comfortable with him.
"What a great guy he is. He's not only friendly, smart, interesting, and handsome, but he is also very kind and sweet."
She answered his first question.
"Well, I like to do a lot of things. As you can probably guess, I enjoy reading. I also like to garden -- at home I have several flower gardens. Going along with gardening, and as you can probably gather from what we're doing now, I like to go for walks. I appreciate nature. Another interest of mine is apologetics -- I have to be well versed in that to survive at my school. I also like learning about other cultures and talking with people from those cultures. Hmmm...I enjoy learning new things about various subjects, especially science and history. I like to do things that make me think. You already know sort of my interest in movies -- and I also listen to music. Oh....and another big interest of mine is photography. When my family went on vacation, I liked traveling with them. Computers are yet another interest of mine. What I like to do most of all, though, is helping other people. It's a way of showing love, and there are a lot of people out there who need to be loved."
She paused before answering the second part of his question.
"I'm not really sure what I want to do with my life other than that I just want to help people. I'm studying counseling now, but I'm not really sure that I want to go into professional counseling. There are a lot of jobs in the helping professions, and I'm sure that I could find something. If I had to choose, though, I think I would rather find a guy, fall in love, and get married. I would still serve other people, but then I wouldn't feel so pressured. I want to share my life with another person...you know?"
"Did he just say what I think he said....and did he mean what I think he meant?" She thought to herself in reflection to the Doctor's words:
"So beautiful," He said looking up at Melissa. "...so is the flower."
Not being completely certain, she blushed slightly.
"I'm glad that you like nature, too," she replied.
They continued to walk until they reached a little stream with a bridge. Reply Edit . Report Abuse . Ban User . Delete Post .«Jan 19th 2010, 11:19am #82
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Post by The Tenth Doctor on Jan 1, 2011 20:49:55 GMT -5
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"HAHA COMPUTERS AND PHOTOGRAPHY! BRILLIANT!" He exclaimed enthusiastically.
"Yes, I do know what you mean. I used to be a father, but..." He trailed off, he felt surprised that he could give up so much information to someone he'd only met the day before. Though to be honest it only made him happier. "But that all went." He finished off his sentence.
"I love helping people as well as other aliens. Travelling around the Universe doesn't mean I just look at it all, it's all about the adventure." He emphasised the word 'adventure'. "Besides I like saving and helping planets. They don't praise me or anything but I don't want a reward...travelling around and helping them is a reward in its own." He sighed remember all those fantastic planets.
As they went over the bridge he looked over, the water seemed much cleaner than in England. "I don't know if they have Winnie the Pooh in American but it's about a bear called...well, Winnie the Pooh. He has loads of animal friends. ANYWAY, in one book he makes a game called Pooh sticks and you throw sticks over a bridge and watch which one floats from under the bridge to the other side first. It's really only a game that can be played by two people or more...so," He said and picked up two sticks and gave one to Melissa. "If you would like to play? It's just a bit of fun and a lot of people do it in England just as a sort of reference. It's not one you can play for hours but I thought as a sort of reference to the books and everything, you'd want to try it." He grinned. Reply Edit . Report Abuse . Ban User . Delete Post .«Jan 19th 2010, 12:28pm #83
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Post by The Tenth Doctor on Jan 1, 2011 20:50:18 GMT -5
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Melissa frowned slightly as she heard the Doctor talk about his family. She had almost forgotten that he had said he was the last one left of his home planet.
"If he used to be a father, that means that he.......he had to have been married."
The thought that the Doctor could have ever been married had not crossed her mind. She was glad that he had found someone, but was his wife still alive? Maybe she was just from a different planet. At that moment Melissa felt so stupid for thinking that the Doctor could be interested in her.
"I'm so sorry.....you must have lost your children because of what happened to your planet....I can't imagine what that must have been like."
"I've never really been on an adventure," Melissa revealed to him. "But I think it would be fun. One of my friends liked to quote a book that he'd read. That every woman wants to be caught up in an adventure. I think that it's true."
"I don't like to help people just because of some reward I might get. I could care less if I was recognized for the things that I did."
At the Doctor's question regarding Winnie the Pooh, Melissa had to laugh.
"Yeah.....actually, we do have Winnie the Pooh here in America, but it's something that little kids get into mostly. They used to show a cartoon of it on the Disney channel -- Amanda and Mark used to watch it when they waited for the school bus. Very young children usually have stuffed Pooh's or have clothing with the characters on them. Once a kid gets passed kindergarten, though, I guess parents think their kids have grown out of it. I know about it, in a very general sense. I don't know much about books about it. I suppose that we probably have books here about it, but I don't think I ever read any. I don't know of any games that came from it, but it looks fun. I'd like to try it."
She smiled at him.
"I'm willing to learn....." she replied as she accepted the stick from him, returning his grin.
"You seem to know a lot about England. I'd like to learn more about it."
(I added a little note here earlier for you to read, but then deleted it. I decided it would seem more natural if I didn't make a point of it -- hee hee.) Reply Edit . Report Abuse . Ban User . Delete Post .«Jan 19th 2010, 12:54pm . Edited Jan 19th 2010, 2:09pm #84
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Post by The Tenth Doctor on Jan 1, 2011 20:50:48 GMT -5
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"Everything went, everyone died...everyone is gone now." He reminisced on his planet and the fact that he was they only one left...that he knew of anyway.
"I like kids stuff, it makes me feel young." He laughed. They threw the sticks at the same time and ran to the other side. The first stick they saw was Melissa's, then after a second The Doctor's followed behind.
"Oh darn. I always lose, unbelievable. EVERY TIME!" He said jokingly. They walked over the bridge.
"For someone who travels the Universe I do visit the UK a lot. Sometimes it's by accident, the TARDIS isn't always in her best state. But I know a lot about England because most of my travelling friends come from there." He replied to her question.
"English history is quite unique, though no one in England actually realises with it. A lot of English people aren't that positive...especially the men." He sighed. "The weather isn't the best and that is only one thing they complain about." He laughed at the fact that this was all actually true.
"When it comes to sports though, they can be quite...competitive. They're always proud when they win something, which is good...though they can get violent about it but not always. They are a brilliant bunch but they are a bit stupid." He said grinning. He smiled remembering 1966 and how ecstatic England was to win the World Cup.
"What do you want to know specifically about them?" He asked.
He had no idea where they were but there were some big, lovely trees.
(Ok, be all secretive then...haha just kidding.) Reply Edit . Report Abuse . Ban User . Delete Post .«Jan 20th 2010, 9:21am #85
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Post by The Tenth Doctor on Jan 1, 2011 20:51:16 GMT -5
ArwenMUC (LOL -- I will give you a hint -- pay very close attention to details -- how I word things sometimes. (Both what she says and what she doesn't say). For this roleplay, you should pay attention to what Melissa says when she talks about her past. It's up to you whether or not you want the Doctor to notice anything unusual. He probably wouldn't have noticed it the first time -- the post was the first time she talked about any old past for her. Eventually, there will be sort of a pattern to it...but I don't think that Melissa's given him enough information to note yet. I think it's too early yet for him to see anything strange. I'll just tell you what I mean with the last post -- she talked about her brother and sister watching it, but she didn't mention herself at all. She didn't say anything about when she was that age whether or not she watched it. That probably wouldn't seem strange anyway.) "Kids stuff can definitely be fun sometimes," Melissa laughed. "And I'm sure you don't lose every single time. After all, that was my first time playing it, so maybe I just got lucky." She smiled as she watched him talk about England and the English people. "I don't know.....anything that you wanted to tell me. I didn't have anything specific in mind with the question." Melissa looked at where they were on the trail. She looked at how beautiful everything was. Seeing several wild rose bushes, Melissa commented, "The trail is prettier in early June. That's when the wild roses bloom, but they only bloom once a year." "I think we're nearing the end of the trail......um......when this trail ends, would you like to go on another one, or did you want to do something else?" She decided to take the opportunity to find out more about him while they finished walking the trail. "So what was your home planet like?" she asked. "If it's too hard to talk about, you don't have to answer the question...but I just wanted to find out more about you." Reply Edit . Report Abuse . Ban User . Delete Post .«Jan 20th 2010, 10:02am #86
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Post by The Tenth Doctor on Jan 1, 2011 20:51:58 GMT -5
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(Ok I see. Thanks.)
"Uh well I don't have much more to say about England. Although if you ever want to go there then you sort of have to plan it out. People over there aren't as helpful as over here." He informed her.
"My planet was beautiful, the sky was a burnt orange. Twin suns shone down of a fantastic glass dome which held citadel." He told her wistfully. "There are snow capped mountains they had slopes of deep red grass and the mountains they went on forever. Silver leaved trees would gleem as the sun caught them every morning, as if the forest was fire." He explained stretching his mind back as far as possible. This time he smiled at the sight he imagined, how amazing his people had been.
He peered at her and he didn't need to say anything. His words echoed in his head and for once it felt like he could see it right in front of him.
"It was an incredible sight. I wish I could go back and see it...but it's not as easy as that." He sighed heavily. "I can see it, all the time I could only remember the view in my mind but when I explain it I can really see it." He told her, he wished that more than anything else he could go back to those times.
"Still, can't just sit around and imagine." He said snapping out of it. He looked at her and he knew she understood, she would understand because she was just that type of person. Reply Edit . Report Abuse . Ban User . Delete Post .«Jan 20th 2010, 12:23pm #87
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Post by The Tenth Doctor on Jan 1, 2011 20:52:44 GMT -5
ArwenMUC (No problem ) Melissa smiled at the description that he gave of the planet. He had described it with such detail, passion, and longing, that she could easily imagine such a planet. In fact, the things that he said reminded her of some place that she had dreamed about several times. It seemed completely ridiculous. She was simply just matching up images that she had had from a random dream with what he was describing She assumed that she did that because she needed or wanted a picture to go with such beautiful words. At the very least, she could imagine what it must have been like. "It sounds very beautiful," she said to him out loud. "I wish that I could see it, too." She nodded in understanding. She didn't want to make it harder on him. "What do you want to talk about now? Or did you want to go somewhere else?" Reply Edit . Report Abuse . Ban User . Delete Post .«Jan 20th 2010, 1:52pm #88
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Post by The Tenth Doctor on Jan 1, 2011 20:53:17 GMT -5
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"I dunno. Want to go and find a present for your brother?" He asked her.
He then thought for a second. "Tell me about your brother? What he likes? What he does?" He asked, he want to find out about her and her family.
"Also you told me about the guys who thought you liked a lot, tell me about them...if you want to? To be honest you don't have to answer of these questions if you're not comfortable with them." He told her. He didn't want to seem that he was invading her personal life but he wanted to know so much. He also wanted to put her at ease.
'Oh god that was probably too far...I'm never good with questions.' He thought to himself looking worried.
He wondered if she thought him inquisitive. After all he had asked a lot of weird and unconnected questions. He was always inquisitive, wanting to find out more. Not just about people but about...well...anything. Reply Edit . Report Abuse . Ban User . Delete Post .«Jan 21st 2010, 9:44am #89
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Post by The Tenth Doctor on Jan 1, 2011 20:53:54 GMT -5
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"All right," replied Melissa. "That would be a great idea....the trail ends up here, and then we can take a walk into down town. Since this is a nice small town, we'll be perfectly safe walking together. I don't know if I would want to walk by myself after dark, though."
"Well, my brother is only 13, which means that he's in junior high now --he's in seventh grade. His name is Mark, which I don't know whether or not you heard me say his name earlier. He's really into music and band and things....he plays the trumpet in the band. Mark's a funny guy...he is always joking around and stuff. He also is into certain adventure type computer games. He also likes to read a lot. I think you would like him. He's only just started "dating" girls. He's not technically allowed to start really dating until he's 15.....but I know he has had "girl friends."
Melissa paused, trying to think up a response to his next question. This was not information she just shared with anyone....but at the same time she wanted him to know about it. This was all part of her past.
Melissa took a deep breath before she began talking about the guys that she had liked.
"Well......there was this guy that I liked when I was in sixth grade -- his name was Dan."
"Wait...I guess I should explain a few things first so that it will make sense to you. I was new to the school -- my family and I had moved from Indiana. Anyway, one of the first kids that I met there was Jerry. Jerry and a few other kids saw me waiting in line. Of course they knew that I was new, so they talked about me in front of me...as if I wasn't even there. They said some pretty mean things. That was my first experience I had at the new school. It wasn't pleasant, and it made me want to cry. I didn't....the other girls didn't really like me either. I hadn't grown up with them, and because of that their parents didn't like me either. I tried to get into Camp Fire because all the other girls were in it. The mothers who were in charge of it didn't want me there because my family didn't have the status in the community that they were looking for in members. Plus, I would be new...and they just resented the idea of having a new girl there. None of the other kids wanted me to play with them at recess except for one girl...but she was an outcast by the other kids too. I didn't care. She and I became fast friends. It was kind of a snobby school."
"Not long into the school year I started noticing this guy Dan. I thought he was really cute...and it didn't take me long to develop feelings for him. He seemed nice to me at the time, and he had a twin sister....at that time I thought that twins were really cool.....and he was very good looking. Eventually I started telling a few other kids that I liked Dan. I don't remember exactly how it got out, but somehow it did....and it got back to him. When he found out, he started being mean.....and well, he did things to try to hurt me both physically and emotionally. He and his group of friends would hunt me down at recess and throw stuff at me. I would try to hide from him. Around that time the one girl who had become my friend got transferred to another school. I had no friends for the rest of my time at the school. I spent most of my recess hiding from the guys in my grade. I was afraid of what they would do to me if they found me. One time Dan actually came up to me and kicked me in the shins until they bled. Another time he got into my desk and took out one of my pens and ripped it up in front of me. During gym class he would purposely throw balls at my face as hard as he could. He also drew a picture of killing me and showed it to other kids. I think that I've said enough about this for you to get the picture. After he started treating me that way, I became determined to find a guy that would treat me well. I knew that I didn't deserve that kind of treatment, and I also learned that looks weren't everything. I needed to find out how the guy would treat me and how he would treat other kids. It took me a while to stop liking him...but the way that he treated me helped to decrease those feelings faster."
"Derek was another guy in my class. Unlike Dan and his friends, he started to befriend me about halfway through the year. There are times when I wonder whether or not he liked me back. He was the next guy that I liked. Derek was really good in math, and he would talk to me. He even joked with me a bit. We were both really young -- only 12, so you know how little kid crushes can be. Nothing ever came of it. In fact, we had a dance at the end of the school year. Derek refused to dance with me until someone paid him to do so."
"After sixth grade -- the last grade of elementary school -- everyone in the school district went on to the junior high building. In that town there were about six or so elementary schools in the school district. All the sixth graders from all of the schools went to the junior high building together. As you can probably imagine, this was a huge change for all of us. We were suddenly thrown in with kids who had gone to all the other elementary schools. This was good for me because it allowed me to meet new people and make more friends. I did make some new ones, but my enemies had come over to the new school as well. They got more friends, and some of the other kids were still mean to me. It didn't take long for me to become one of the least popular girls in school. Some called me the geekiest or nerdiest girl. At the time I did care....but now I wouldn't. 7th, 8th, and 9th grades were bad. I think 8th was probably the worst."
"I liked a few guys in 7th grade, but I was too afraid to talk to them because of how Dan and his friends had treated me. I didn't want them to turn mean...and I was.....afraid of guys. I let down my guard a little by the time I was in 8th grade, and I developed a huge crush on this guy named Andy. He was in my science class -- and he was even put in the same group as me at the beginning of the year. I'm not exactly sure what attracted me to him. He was cute, he was artistic, and he talked to me. He seemed to be nice...and even interested in me. At one point in the school year one of his friends came up to us both. We were sitting together talking when Alan approached Andy. He asked him if we were going out yet. I dropped the colored pencils that I had been using for a project. I couldn't believe that Alan had just asked Andy if he and I were going out. Did that mean that Andy liked me in return? I hoped so. It also happened to be Andy's birthday. After Andy had answered the question by saying not yet...I really got excited. I thought that maybe finally my dreams of being in a relationship with a guy would come true. Andy and I were left alone at the table. Andy knew that I liked someone, but up until that point I refused to tell him who it was. I explained to him that I didn't want to say who it was because of what happened to me in 6th grade. I told him about Dan and what had happened with him. Andy convinced me that the same thing wouldn't repeat itself because we were in 8th grade now. I trusted his response. Besides, it was his birthday, and I wanted to do for him what I had always dreamed of for myself. I thought it would be neat if someone that I like told me that they liked me on my birthday. I mustered up the courage and told him that I liked him. I whispered that I liked him just as the bell rang. He smiled at me."
Melissa let out a huge sigh.
"I was excited about what might happen between Andy and I. However, that dream was quickly shattered. Andy had told his friends that I liked him....and they talked "sense" into him. He treated me much the same way that Dan had...only he didn't physically hurt me. Andy and his friends would taunt me wherever I went. Andy even stooped to the level of writing me a fake love note. I had seen him writing something in science class the one day....and I found a note that had been stuffed in my locker another day. It had always been my dream to receive a note from a guy in my locker. The note read "To You from Him." I knew it was from Andy. I opened it up only to discover that he had turned me into a joke. He had written a pornographic note about what he had done to some other girl. I didn't think that what he said in it was real, but the idea that he even would write me a story like that disgusted me. He and his friends looked up my family's phone number in the phone book. They would often call me, trying to play a trick on me. One of them would pretend that he was in love with me and wanted to talk to me. One time they even called me up for a dance and told me to meet them there. His friends began writing fake love letters to me in class and putting them on my things. This extended into ninth grade as well. Well....what happened with the dance was that as soon as I got there, they came up to me and laughed in my face. Although I knew that all of this was fake, deep down inside I wanted someone to truly value me and love me. I kept on holding to some sort of hope that there might be some level of truth to the love notes and to the dance invitation."
"Oh.....I forgot to tell you about Brandon. There was a guy whose sister knew me...she told me that her brother Brandon liked me in seventh grade. Of course this had gotten me excited. I think he really might have liked me....but not enough to risk his reputation on me. When you're in junior high and high school -- reputation means everything, which I quickly learned. At the last dance of the year, he spent a lot of time with me. He got me some pop, which he paid for himself. We danced together, and I was hoping that something would come of it. Well, of course everyone at the dance saw us together. They started harassing Brandon. After they did that, he no longer liked me...and he no longer wanted anything to do with me."
Melissa paused again, not wanting to look at the Doctor. She was afraid of his reaction to all of this...she didn't know what he'd think.
"In 8th grade there were some other things that happened in regard to other students. In art class a guy named Kyle tried to physically hurt me. He stuck out his leg to try to trip me. I avoided it most of the time, but one time I just couldn't, and I fell. Of course all the other students in the room thought it was hilarious, and they encouraged him to keep on treating me like dirt. I had no feelings for Kyle, but he still was mean. One time he even came up to me and kicked me in the stomach so hard that it knocked the wind out of me for a couple minutes. I was defenseless against him. He came at me a couple other times....once in the band room and once in the art class. In the band room he had me trapped behind instrument cases so that I couldn't escape. He just started kicking me as hard as he could. Fortunately the band teacher saw it and got him to stop. But that was kind of typical of the treatment that I thought that guys would give me. Even though this was all my experience was, I kept on holding to the idea that there were nice guys out there who would treat me as I deserved to be treated...even though I didn't know any."
"I liked this guy named Chris in 9th grade. He was really into Star Wars, which I also really liked, and he sat behind me in algebra class. I'm pretty sure that he did like me, but I was too afraid to talk to him. He was in several of my classes, actually. One time when we had a substitute teacher in the class, one of his friends made a comment about him being single to me. Also, one time I heard him talking about me, saying that I looked like Princess Leia. I didn't know how to respond to that....I was too scared. I think he was trying to hit on me. Another of his friends made a comment in class one time that I was really hot, and that if Chris didn't take me, then he would. Those comments, I believe, were genuine."
"When I got into tenth grade, everyone changed schools once again. My school system was weird and had the 9th grade at the junior high building, even though it was technically the first year of high school. Anyway, in tenth grade we were at the high school building. Things with guys got a little better then. I was still harassed, but in different ways. I got to know some of the nicer guys a little better. There was one guy in particular -- his name was Matt. He was very, very cute. He happened to be in band, and he was nice. He would actually talk to me in the classes that I was in with him, and we had real conversation. It didn't take me long to develop feelings for him -- and I guess, I might have actually fallen in love with him. I know I cared about him deeper than I ever had any of my other previous crushes. I decided to risk it and tell him that I liked him. And so I did....I told him that I liked him when he and I were alone at a football game. He was very kind about it. He thanked me for telling him, and he treated me no different after I told him. However, he just didn't have the same feelings for me. He didn't care if people thought that he and I were friends. And because of how kind he was to me, I started taking more risks talking to guys -- just befriending them. At the school dances I would ask nice guys that I knew if they would like to dance with me for a song. I had given up waiting for guys to ask me. I didn't want to sit out for the whole evening.....and they were nice about it."
"As I got to know Matt better, my feelings for him just continued to grow. I enjoyed spending time with him and talking to him. I had been aware of the rumors that Matt was gay, but I ignored them. After all, Matt had dated a girl for about a year. Well, in eleventh grade I found out that Matt really was gay. All thoughts of me and him being together vanished. I knew that I could never be with Matt. He never dated another girl, and soon began to only date men."
"There were a couple of other guys I liked in high school, but none of those crushes were as big as the one that I had had on Matt. I did have a good friend -- he was almost like my best friend in high school -- but I didn't have any romantic feelings for him -- at least that I was aware of. Anyway, he and I would talk a lot, and when he got his driver's license he promised to drive me to school. I thought that was very nice of him. Early into the school year, though, he stopped driving me. He never told me why, but I found out later. Because he and I were close friends, everyone always assumed that he and I were dating. I guess he didn't like that....and his sister put a lot of pressure on him to not be my friend anymore. Because he didn't want his own chances of finding someone and being popular to be hurt by me, he didn't really want to associate with me anymore. That's why he didn't drive me to school."
Melissa took another pause, still not wanting to look at the Doctor.
"Then I went off to college and met this guy named Jeremy. Jeremy and I were in a group called Emerging Leaders together. He was very kind and he reminded me a lot of Matt. I fell for him as well. He actually seemed interested in what I had to say, and he and I would talk for hours about various topics. He talked to me more than even Matt had. I....I thought that he might like me. One of my early friends in college told me that she knew that someone else liked Jeremy, but that she was one hundred percent convinced that he liked me. Until she had said that, I hadn't been so certain. I told a few people in the Emerging Leaders group that I liked Jeremy. Of course people talk and stuff...and the word eventually got back to him. He did the gentlemen-like thing, and he called me up on the phone and told me he wanted to talk to me. I got really excited because I thought that finally someone that I liked would return my feelings. Well, I got to the appointed spot -- the bell tower -- and he asked me if there was anything that I wanted to tell him. I told him there was, and I told him that I liked him. Like Matt, he thanked me for telling him. He also told me that he didn't feel the same way about me. He was very kind about it, and he and I continued to be good friends afterwards. I kept on hoping that something would happen between us later. It never did. The friend who had told me that she was certain that Jeremy liked me went with me somewhere. While we were there, we saw Jeremy and the girl that she had told me liked him. They were definitely together, and they even kissed each other right in front of me. At the time, I wished that my friend had warned me about them. Apparently, she'd known for some time that they were a couple. Of course things didn't work out between the two of us."
"The next year I developed a crush on a guy that I had known since my first year in college -- and that was Nathan. The first time that he met me, I was sitting by myself at lunch in the cafeteria. He and his friend came over to sit with me. I thought that was the kindest thing ever. He was a true friend to me, and he didn't care what anyone else thought. He and I worked together in residence life -- we were RA's together for our residence halls. He was so kind to me the entire time that I knew him. At our RA training, he listened to me and gave me a hug when I was having a bad day. The night that I discovered that I liked him was when I thought about all the qualities that I was looking for in a guy. I was trying to think if any guy I knew had them, and I thought of Nathan. Then I realized just how much I loved him. I was determined to tell him how much I appreciated him. So....when we got back from our Christmas break and headed off to training, I asked him if he would talk to me alone sometime. He said he would be glad to. I invited him to come over to my room and talk...so that's what we planned. I sat him down in a chair and thanked him for his kindness and his friendship. I didn't tell him that I liked him yet. I wanted to wait on that. He and I ended up having a very good conversation, and we ended up watching a movie together. I also told him about the stuff that I'm telling you now -- about my past in school and with guys."
"He took it all in, and he didn't judge me for any of it. Instead, he showed me love -- not romantic love, but agape love. He then helped me work on this bulletin board that I had to do. We talked the entire time. In the middle of that week he called me up on the phone and asked me if I wanted to go to dinner with him and his friends. Of course I said yes. So I ate with them. For the first time in my life I had a group of friends. It took a while for some of the people to accept me into the group, but Nathan always made sure that I was invited to the stuff they did on the weekends. When I had to be on duty for my RA stuff, he would always come over to keep me company. He would also bring over other people. He also gently taught me stuff...and he helped me out a lot emotionally. He talked me through some of the hurt and emotional baggage that I had been carrying because of how people treated me in school. Nathan would also talk to me on instant messenger programs. I'm sure I bothered him and annoyed him sometimes, but he never showed that he was annoyed with me."
"Eventually I ended up telling him that I liked him. Like both Matt and Jeremy, he thanked me and was nice about the whole thing. He told me that he was honored that I would feel that way about him. However, he just didn't return my feelings. I kept hoping that he would eventually like me...but he never felt like that about me. He dated a couple girls when we were in college, but even through that, I still loved him. It took me a couple years out of college to get over my feelings for him. It was really, really hard because of just how much I cared for him."
"Sometime during my junior year of college I developed feelings for a guy named Josh. He and I did this project together for one of my classes. He was nice, and he listened to me talk. We had to talk about pretty intimate things for the class. I liked him.....and eventually I told him, but like the others, he didn't return the feelings."
"At the beginning of my senior year in college there was a guy named Tim who I think did like me. During our RA training, I came over and sat with him during lunch. Up until that point I had only viewed him as a friend. However, shortly after that I heard people whispering about us....about him maybe liking me. That got my hopes up a little. I found out later that he had tried to invite me to go watch fireworks with him in a park. It didn't work out, though, because he had called the wrong number. He didn't realize that my Resident Director had had this other girl and I switch rooms at the last minute. All the papers that listed the RA phone numbers had it wrong. He called my old room, and the girl who was there had gone home for the weekend. She didn't tell me about it until almost a week later. I guess that Tim assumed that I just wasn't interested in him...and it didn't take him long to find someone else."
"And finally, here in graduate school there was a guy that I had developed some feelings for. He and I had the same views, and we had hung out some. He was only at the school for a semester, though, so we didn't really get to know one another that well. I never got a chance to tell him that I liked him."
Melissa then risked a glance in the Doctor's direction.
"And that pretty much sums up my history with guys. That was probably more than you wanted to know....but I didn't know how to talk about any of it without talking about all of it....just so that you would understand why I fell so in love with Nathan."
Nathan was the one that Melissa had been thinking of the most in their previous conversations. She didn't mind that the Doctor was asking her so many questions. In fact, she was grateful that he was. It wasn't often that she had met someone who had wanted to know so much about her. Reply Edit . Report Abuse . Ban User . Delete Post .«Jan 21st 2010, 10:46am . Edited Jan 21st 2010, 11:58am #90
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Post by The Tenth Doctor on Jan 1, 2011 20:54:26 GMT -5
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He stared at her with a look of disbelief. He couldn't believe how awful men could be, but what really made him surprised was how Melissa could go on hoping when she'd been hurt so much. She'd been through so much and yet she kept going and didn't give up. He was rather pleased that some of the guys had at least been kind about it but still. He had no idea what to say or do. So he did one thing that he'd been doing to all his friends if they had been in trouble. He stopped and hugged her.
"I'm so sorry, I real am." He whispered to her whilst still hugging her. They were there in the same position for a few minutes. Neither of them wanted to move. They did finally stopped. "Some of those guys sound horrible. You've been so much heart break. I wish there was something I could do." He told her truthfully.
"I'm in disbelief of how people can get pleasure out of hurting someone who liked them. It's just heartless." He said with disgust. He felt almost angry at the fact that humans can be so low.
He knew that after all that she would feel terrible. He held her hand just to give her a bit of comfort and courage. At first he thought the more she got into the story the worse the men got but gradually they did get better about it. At least they had hearts and probably by being older they understood the emotions that a girl could have. Still it was unbelievable that they would do that. Reply Edit . Report Abuse . Ban User . Delete Post .«Jan 21st 2010, 12:33pm #92
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Post by The Tenth Doctor on Jan 1, 2011 20:54:48 GMT -5
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When Melissa had finished with her story, she had herself shed a few tears. Although all of this had happened so long ago, and she had forgiven the people who had hurt her, it always took a lot out of her to tell the story.
Melissa hadn't really expected him to say anything, but she was surprised that he had taken it so well. She felt him pull her into a hug, and she had hugged him back. It felt so good to be hugged by other people -- she'd always liked hugs. The fact that it was he who had hugged her made her feel all warm and fuzzy inside. After he had released her, she still could feel the spot on her back where his hands had been.
"Thank you, " she whispered to him. "It's been a long time, but it always takes a lot of me to tell that story."
"Yes, some of those guys were horrible. It's all in the past, though....I would never have chosen to go through all that....but I'm kind of glad that it did happen. I've learned so much about guys and what I want in them -- and also what I don't want. I think it's also caused me to value what it means to be in a relationship more than if I had never experienced the pain. Also, in the end, all of it just served to make me stronger on the inside. Sometimes it takes going through something hard in order for a person to grow...and to learn what real trust, love, and hope is. I wouldn't be the person that I am today if I hadn't experienced all of that."
Melissa sighed.
"I don't understand it either -- how someone can get pleasure out of hurting someone else...especially someone that liked them, but they did. There are adult women who go through similar things all the time. I'm fortunate that I found out about what makes a good guy before some of these abused women did."
She felt the Doctor take her hand and hold it. That really had felt comforting to her.
"Are you ready to help me find something for my brother?" Melissa asked. Reply Edit . Report Abuse . Ban User . Delete Post .«Jan 21st 2010, 1:14pm #93
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Post by The Tenth Doctor on Jan 1, 2011 20:55:18 GMT -5
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"Yeah, sure." He answered.
"So a musician? Nice. I LOVE THE TRUMPET! I once tried to learn it...didn't go so well." He told her admiring her brother but also cringing at whatever memory had stopped him learning the trumpet. "Now that I think about it I should have learnt guitar instead, hmm." He said thinking to himself.
"Do you think he'll like something musical? THAT'D BE GOOD! Or maybe something that might help him with everyday life?" He asked scanning shop windows.
"I dunno, I'm not good at picking stuff out...although over the year my clothing sense has gotten better." He said remembering the past of his dress sense.
He looked at all the shop windows in amazement. Never had he seen so many unrelated things in shops before. He knew that obviously shops sold different things but some products didn't make any sense. Reply Edit . Report Abuse . Ban User . Delete Post .«Jan 22nd 2010, 9:27am #94
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Post by The Tenth Doctor on Jan 1, 2011 20:55:38 GMT -5
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Melissa could only smile at his enthusiasm.
"Yes, he is a musician. You tried to learn the trumpet too? Unfortunately, not all of us are musical."
"Well, I think he would like just about anything that's nice. Yes, he probably would like something that's musical. Something that would help him in everyday life would also be good. Do you have anything specific in mind?"
"We could always just kind of look around in the stores here until we find something that interests us."
She smiled at the thought of going shopping with the Doctor. It had been a long time since she had gone shopping with a guy....Nathan had taken her shopping once so that they could both get their mothers something for Mother's Day. Reply Edit . Report Abuse . Ban User . Delete Post .«Jan 22nd 2010, 9:35am #95
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